before sunrise

2:30 AM

drizzles poured that night. heavens were one with me. they cried for me earlier because i couldn't.

the living room scene. watching both tv and laptop. he reminisces his days in a foreign land. i pretend to listen, watch. i told myself, anytime he would be leaving and we're making the most of what time left for us. and this body beside me, who had been a friend, a comfort, a great buddy, and everything else that a person can be who can give you 'wonderful times', would surely be away from me any moment soon.

we never had our Canibad plan.
had it been pursued, the days and nights will be quite longer.
and today, will not be the moment of truth yet.

i dread the following hours that will come. no more morning chat. no more 'routine' dinners and dates in the parks.

i wanted to stop time.
but i know i have to let go.
if letting go was the best thing to do that moment, only time will tell.

we waited for a taxi outside. drizzles continue to pour. as if they are the ones shedding tears for me which i cannot do at that moment. no. not in front of him. fortitude.

the taxi came.
im faking smiles.
he went inside.
the taxi moved on as he wave goodbye inside.
i wave goodbye too as i turned my back heading for the gate
tears runned down on my cheeks.

this is my second entry about the guy i mentioned who texted me.
funny how life brings us surprises.

things will be different now.
i must admit i will surely miss him.
things just came too soon...


feb. 14,2010